Saturday, November 17, 2007
thus begins my 1 month hiatus from institution. its quite ironic that once all the stress is lifted and the burdens shaken off my shoulders, i can't sleep for the simple reason that there's nothing. perhaps this is testament to how IB has ruined us, but i'm not going to start on that anymore.
its over, its over, its over, its over. way to go, when you complete your last day in school by losing your oh-so-favourite tie of redbluegold. i don't really know whether i've come out more ac than ever, but i have to admit the mis-matched species emblazed over our crest has brought out a confidence i would never have displayed if i had been in any other school. we're not proud of our school because of our school spirit, nor our school unity, nor the name that we carry with as we leave. but rather i am proud of what i have become, ac.
but i have this to say about nanhua. i am extremely thankful to God that he put me into that wonderful school. i'll always remember the series of events that led my parents to enroll me there, and i am just amazed to know of the greatness of His plans. i began my ac life resenting my stint in nanhua, because of the culture shock. and how i grudgingly admitted i would have enjoyed my early years so much more within the ac boundaries of junior and primary. yet as i look back now, nanhua instilled moral values that has never really left the students after they are long gone. i look at my ex-primary mates in ac, despite the hypocritical and poorly-valued school we resided in, almost everyone of us remained as we were. a little wilder maybe, a little cruder maybe, but still reminiscent of what we know we were brought up for. i can still see remnants of the nanhua in those from other colleges as well, so perhaps the greater influence has been the one of being nh.
i am extremely proud to be ac. i don't care what other people think or say, you must be a guy to truly understand being ac. i am also extremely proud to have come from nanhua, and i know everyone who has been there can testify to this too. so now primary secondary and jc has ended, therein lies the beginning steps of the greater education we shall behold. next, we learn how to be a man, and then how to be a husband, and finally how to be a father. really i can't wait.
but hold, there's still this month of hiatus. i suppose this month is especially significant. it symbolizes my transition from institution to institution, but it is also the month i shall finally face my demons. i've started cursing again and its getting way too frequent that it warrants heavy self-control. there are things i want to fix, people i want to see and talk to. but that can wait, until what i see as being a christian finally coincides with what God sees me as.
my final question i leave before i go hum around. Psychology or Medicine. Mind over body.
convicted by Your spirit, led by Your word
7:48 AM
