Sunday, July 08, 2007
i used to hate my life, how i never had at least one friend whom i could be totally open with, someone whom i knew would have my back no matter what i did, and could return likewise what i could give. i wondered how i had to achieve what i wanted through sheer effort, how i placed so much importance into so many friendships, only to find that they didn't place that much into one with me.
but now i know God knows best. had He allowed me one friend, one situation which i could just attain without an effort, i'd overlook it and take it for granted. i'm slowly understanding a bit more about how my life is gonna be run by Him, how i'm used to put that much effort into others but in the knowledge that friendship comes like that to them, they overlook it. i'm not judging others, but i realise its really what God doesn't want me to be.
i used to wonder what its like to have a comfort zone, now i'm so thankful i don't have one. otherwise, i'd never leave it.
convicted by Your spirit, led by Your word
3:21 AM
