Saturday, September 09, 2006
i was thinking to myself tonight. with whom could i be transparent with? who knew me as me? who would tolerate my flaws and give a presence when i needed some? who could understand me?
and yet as i kept thinking. reflecting. i found that i missed so many of them already. and i realised too that so many of them came from where i always wanted to leave.
band.
yingda and mingxuan. i think of everyone in the band, you two really took the time to know me, and understand my heart. playing wise, i was by far the worst. the least motivated, the one with the least passion for band music. but you never gave up on me. with all the encouragement i got, only now when you guys have moved and i gone do i realise i miss the time when we could just sit down and talk. i remember mx being that good friend ever since sec 2. and yd a certain confidante and a great person to really have good intellectual talks with. in some aspects, i was never in your league, but you two never made it seem so. and i find that its only the two of you in acsi band, that understood and never judged me when i left. thank you. for you two are my brothers for life anyhow.
and in my 4 years, i formed bonds with others. lenny, you'll never ever see this. haha. and we've been good friends for so long, and even longer as deuts. i'm proud to be your classmate and friend. milton and imran. you two were my good friends for 2 years. people i could laugh with and have fun with for a time. and though life has brought me away from you. we'd always remember each other as omers. that we were once close brothers and confidantes. and i'll always pray, that God will be a close part of your life. thank you brothers.
and there were always the others. jai, jonan, nic chia, justin, bryan, ken koh and lim, zhenghao, darren. despite the pain and hardship we went through for the last year of secondary band, you guys made it memorable, to the very lows and highs of my band life.
and i don't stop here. yibin, haha. you too will never see this, but i am really glad that no matter how funny you seemed to me and others, i saw a mature and very understanding teacher under all the fun. i think you enjoyed my terrorism over the 4 years, and you too let me go with blessings as you saw my ideals and plans. you're gonna rock the world with your reeds.
and i'd never ever forget college, as crys always put it as. shibs, you're the first oboeist i knew that i could relate to almost instantaneously. its like we could get along so well. and its great, because you made my last 3 months finally enjoyable as an oboeist. do college proud. kristen, you're that twin whom i could have laughs and fun with. and i too want to thank you, for all that you've done for me.
ruth (surname) (first chinese name) ling! haha. i think my impression of you hasn't changed since i first met you. what does this mean? it means that you have zero pretense. you are what you are. and i've never met anyone like you at all. its great to really know you because i think you're the 2nd in the acjc band that i can be really myself. and its really great to see God work in your life too. let's strive for an even closer relationship with God.
i saved the best for last. haha. crys. i don't need to say anything. you know what you mean to me. you know me. you've changed me and you've helped me up by being there when no one was there. you're someone who challenges my views and thoughts. you're a sister i'll never ever want to lose. press on for Him sis.
and it pains me somewhat. that when i left, i left them all behind.
or did i? i don't think so.
so if anyone ever asks me, what band did for me the 4 years. i'd say,
band started my love for music in general. and band's given me friendship i would otherwise have never found in my educatory life. i treasure my memories in band.
there's one more really. one more of whom i have the utmost respect for. one more of whom i'll never forget, who shaped certain beliefs in me, and showed me that i can be more than what i am. a sensational leader and a great man. His name is Lee Tian Tee.
DOCTOR Lee Tian Tee.
convicted by Your spirit, led by Your word
9:15 AM
